14st12. BMI 31.6

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I blame myself for a lot of things, particularly in regard to my weight.

A brief history, probably all too tedious and familiar to those of you who are long term readers.

Years ago I weighed 15 st 8. I joined Weight Watchers and around 18 months later reached my goal weight of 11 st 10. ( One stone equals fourteen pounds.) I dropped down to 11 st 6, but that seemed really light. I maintained my weight loss for a couple of years, then got a new therapy job that involved sitting on my ass all day and eating pastries. My weight went up a few pounds to 12 st 5 or so, and I maintained that until we started IVF. I gained weight during IVF and the date of the egg collection I weighed 12 st 8, I think.

I then stopped paying attention to weight, though I gained 59 pounds during my twin pregnancy. Sixty pounds was the medical goal, so it was a total fluke. The day before my section I weighed 17 st 4. I did lose nineteen pounds in birth, but gained some back as, I’m sure we all recall, I was in a wheelchair for about nine months and totally unable to walk.

Since that time, I have very slowly lost weight. I went down to 15 st 8 and stayed there a long time. And now had dropped to a stone lighter, and have been around that weight for even longer. I’ve been complacent, even when I knew weight loss might help my SPD, help me be more fertile, etc.

I am not in a good head space to lose weight. Last time, my 55 pound loss was framed within a me that was totally assured and focused. There was no doubt in my mind I would lose the weight. So no surprise that I did, though I was certainly surprised I maintained that level of weight loss until my twin pregnancy.

I’m not focused and assured now. My life is very different, my eating is very different, my daily exercise levels are very different. But I’m going to try anyway. So every Sunday you can feel free to skip my posts if weight loss is not your thing. I know this is like the fifteenth time since having the babies that I’ve tried to lose weight. It probably won’t be the last. But I think it is precisely because of my negative head space that I need to try.

In the interest of accuracy, today I weighed in just before lunch. I’d already eaten breakfast, etc etc. Future weigh ins will be first thing. I anticipate dropping to 14 st 6 very quickly, but then that is the weight where I stall. Every time. I don’t have a set goal weight in mind, also unlike last time, but for now let’s aim for a bmi under 30 – no, let’s aim for 196 pounds. 14 stone exactly. That’s how much I weighed when I finished university, and it was a good weight.

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5 Responses to “14st12. BMI 31.6”

  1. Lyssie Says:

    I’m rooting for you, yay for the return of slim down Sundays 🙂

  2. Sue Says:

    Hi! My name is Sue, and I’m from SlimKicker, a fitness/diet app and website. I found your blog a few days ago and it captured my interest!

    I’m contacting you b/c we’re about to release a fitness tracker (similar to FitBit) early next year, and are looking for bloggers who would be interested in receiving 1 for free to review when it is out (negative or positive).

    Would you be interested in doing this? You can email me at: sue (at) slimkicker (com) with ‘Review’ in the email heading if you are.

    In case you don’t know, our website SlimKicker basically turns your fitness/diet goals into a fun level-up game. The tracker will work in conjunction the website, and allow people to track calories burned and number of steps they walk automatically. The more they exercise, the more points they rack up! That’s basically how it will work.

    Anyway, hope to hear back either way…

    – Sue
    P.S. You can choose not to publish this comment as this is more of a private comment 🙂

  3. Liv Says:

    Hope it goes well, and you find some more positive head space too!

  4. mendylady Says:

    You know I’m an advocate for Health at Every Size… if this is a good weight for you, eff ’em. Only I wish that worked. If you want to lose more, I’m cheering!

    • me Says:

      This is not a good weight for me. It majorly impacted my fertility, joints, etc. I am much better and feel much healthier at a lighter weight! But thank you. X

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