Worried now.


Just wrote that positive, uplifting post. Then Coco woke from nap – after about 45 minutes of sleep. So no break for me, because I needed to lie down for two hours during nap.

I’m holding her, rocking her, trying to get her back to sleep ….even as it’s obvious she doesn’t need more. There’s a knock on the door. I stupidly go to answer it while holding her.

Feels like my pelvis has split apart. The symphasis pubis pain has been terrible these last few days – as bad as pregnancy. Well, that was nothing compared to this. It is AS BAD, if not worse, than the end of pregnancy. Hurts to put any weight on right leg – immediate horrific pain in my crotch. And separating my legs at all to walk? BAD IDEA.

I no longer feel chirpy and positive.

In fact, I am downright worried. What in the fucking world would cause my crotch to relapse so severely? The front pain pretty much cleared up when they were born – no severe front pain for well over a year now. And suddenly it’s back?

Fuck. Coco has pooped. Wish me luck changing a diaper. OW.


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5 Responses to “Worried now.”

  1. Violetsouffle Says:

    I’m So so sorry my lovely friend. I wish there was something I could do. Lots of good thoughts to you. Heal, existere’s body. Heal!

  2. Bobbie Says:

    saying lots of healing prayers for you, I hope you feel better soon

  3. The Barreness Says:

    Sorry to hear you’re still in pain. I had a little of it towards the end of my pregnancy, but it was easy to handle knowing (fairly certainly) that it would be over once the baby was born, Not sure how I would handle the complete unknown of that pain, particularly thinking of TTC again. Fingers crossed the specialists you mention can prove helpful.

  4. Christy Says:

    I am so very sorry that you are in such bad pain. I can only imagine how hard and frustrating it is to be in pain and on top of that taking care of two babies. I wish I could help you in some way. I’m sending you crazy healing vibes.

  5. mamacrow Says:

    oh no 😦 sending painkilling healing vibes. and hoping that the dr/whatevers can find out why and help – soon xx

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