How could I ever imagine I could go from this
I had no idea that she would make these ridiculous little faces, forehead wrinkled and lips open in a surprised ‘o.’ I had no idea how rosy and tiny she would be. How she would instantly look into my eyes and stare at me.
And him? The snorting sounds he makes when he tries to feed, the restless kicks and wiggles of his sleep, the endlessly loud hiccups that will always wake him up. How could I know those movements in my womb would yield a real little boy?
And the feeling of a little baby curled up on each side of me, sleeping with their faces tucked against me. Each one holding onto my thumbs for dear life, trusting me. And I certainly couldn’t have imagined what it would be like to do this:
Most startling, how they both sleep in exactly the same position. How within seconds of one shifting their left hand up to their head, the other will follow. How they both opened their left eyes first, sometimes only, having a peek around. How they lazily pull away from the breast and then raise their eyebrows in the exact same way. They even both had the same gunky stuff in the same eye, clearing up at the same time.
Welcome to our family. And they’d like to say hello to all of you. I’d like to say thank you for the congratulations. TMD and I have never been so tired, or so happy.
After all the worries they would come early (delivered at 38 weeks) and be too small (he was 7 lb 8, she was 6 lb 6), you are both so perfect, and soft, and small, and ours. How long we waited for you, how many fears and worries we had, how many hopes and expectations. You surpass anything either of us ever thought we could begin to imagine. We love you more than words will say, but I know you feel it because of the way you look at us.